Today I was majorly convicted. Sometimes the Lord speaks softly and over a long period of time. Other times He speaks loudly and directly. Today was a loud and directly kind of day. Hans, our pastor, was preaching about Matthew 5:27-32. It wasn't the teaching on Adultery or Divorce that has me convicted. What I took away from the teaching was how I live my life as a disciple of Christ has everything to do with where my heart and mind are focused. Am I focusing my life on Christ? On being genuine with the people He created? Pouring my time, talents, treasures in things that will last for eternity?
My increased time on the computer all started back when Austin was born 9 months ago. I would browse the internet as I sat and nursed him. Half an hour x 7-8 feedings a day really adds up to a lot of time spent on the computer doesn't it! After a few months of constantly having the world at my finger tips I started to notice that even when I wasn't feeding him I would find a reason to search something or browse just to "take a break."
It wasn't like I was spending all my time on the computer but I was THINKING about it quite a bit. What subject would I look up next, pin next, Facebook next, YouTube next, etc... Even getting on to quickly check something can turn into a total time suck. Check Facebook for messages and then 20 minutes later you are still on Facebook looking at posts.When I started thinking about what my mind and time is focused on, it was clear to me that I had really messed up my focus and priority.
So with all that being said, I really feel like the Lord is calling me to take a step back from Facebook in particular but also the computer in general and really focus on the relationships He has placed in front of me for this season of life. I will still look at my Facebook account on occasion and post here and there but for this season of life it is time for me to take a big step back and refocus. I have set time limits on how long I can be on the computer a day and only when the important things have been accomplished first. I want my boys to remember mommy focused on them, teaching them about the love Jesus has for them and be an example of how He wants us to live.
I will be posting photos on here instead of Facebook for the most part and updating you all on the things going on in our lives. God is so good and when we choose to live in obedience to Him there is freedom. I desire that freedom of time and mental energy that can so easily get trapped inside the computer screen!
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